Everything Im Not.

Im back..

Kudat..

To many of you, it's probally the most boringest place ever. I mean, it has no decent shopping centre, no shopping centre at all in fact! All Kudat has is pasars and beaches and not forgetting the Tip of Borneo. But lets just say, this trip really made me look at myself. What I've been, and what I'm about to be if I don't change. Truthfully, I've yet to find my p u r p o s e. It's easy to say " my purpose is to serve God, and do what he has for in store for me before leaving this place " .. That's just a phrase. I mean, what is the:

" what he has in store for me " ?

Just the 5 nights at Kudat made me realise lots of things. Firstly, how blessed I am to be able to get an education. That is the first thing. Most of the workers I made friends with, never got a chance to study because they came from such poor families. They had to start work from as young as 10!! 3 workers; Ah Kong, Ah ling and Siew Mie have been workin for my unc since around 10 liddat till right now!! They dont really know how to read nor write well.. Yet, they're such nice nice people. So un-self-centered.

Speaking of nice, most of the workers I made friends with are simple and kind hearted. Ahh.. Dunno how to explain. They've just been rili nice lahh.. Doreen aka Doremon!! , Ah ling aka Bing Chi Ling , Siew Mie aka Siew Mai/Dim Sum & Xiao Mei Mei, Tina aka Anit.. haha. Then theres Ah gong, Alice, Ah moi, Whilma and Emerelda!

They are all so easy to laugh and joke with. For the past few days, they had to cope with my broken Chinese and Malay : But wuahaha.. I learned lotsa new worddss!! Everyday, I'd count the work hours with Ah lingg.. Cause everyday, i'd turn up for work damn sleepy..

Wake up at 7:30, work frm 8am-8:45 pm. Non-stop. Sleep at 12++. Fun or not? Hahhaa.. I'd been dead boring if no f r i e n d s laa.. But yeah, i had the friends so it was alright for me. ; ) Got to know a few of them much closer.. im a pry-er..

So anyway, I've been thinkin lotsa stuff and yeahh.. Before I came back to Kudat, Ive been seriously sidetracked and unfocused. I know my plannn.. I know what I want. But I dont seem to be working towards it. Not exactly hardworker.. Theres just too many distractions and thoughts clotting inside. But yeah.. After hearing so many broken dreams of my friends in Kudat. Ive realised that I have everything to go that direction I want.. My parents can afford my right now education, I have so many opportunities towards my dream.. There's books to read for ideas and whatsoever. But theres me. ME. If I dont work towards my dream myself, nothings gonna happen even with everyhting. NOTHING.

Sure, "live ur life to the fullest".. Enjoy now while ur still young. But theres limits. Im about to limit myself. And about to renew myself into being more focused. Into knowing my priorities and WORKIN TOWARDS my dream. So, starting from Monday, Homework to be finished first and whatsoever thats top important.

Hahahaa.. Geek angelaa.. Just listened to this song.

I love the lyrics of the song " Everything Im Not " Hahaha.. Reminds me of who I used to be but not anymore. Kei, I like your blog about girls ranting on about guys.. And I agree with the fact that it is pathetic to get dramatic over a guy. A guy who isnt even worth it.

Well.. Its a girl to guy thing. hahhaa.. It's the issue of guys being incredibly either ignorant or unworthit. And its the issue of girls being incredible dramatic over that unworthit guy.