We belong together..

Sunday, February 26, 2006

I cant get no Satisfaction.

Today, from 2pm-5:30 pm, I've been slaying the dancers BUTT. But YAY. I feel way satisfied. Having Debbie to help out is really great. She's definitely a great dancer. Thank You God! We have completed the first chorus, first verse, second chorus and the beats. We have the second verse and third chorus left. I'm sorry you dancers for being so hard. Its just that .. I HAVE TO!! Im losing my voice. Shouted too much this afternoon. Everyones soo playful. Haihhh.

Oh yeah, did I mention, I got stuck in a oh-so-boring dinner. OLD PPL dinner. The food was good, but the company *hehe , looks around* "borinngg!!" And I was thinking, WHY ME. WHY ME STUCK HERE??!! Me and my bro were freaking bored. So thank goodness, Penny called. And before I knew it *poof* In the car with Vect and Nels. : D yay. Penny, vect and nels are my fairygodmotherss. Yes, Nels and Vect are girls.

No actually, they're gays. hahaa.. Poor vect, lost his twins. Nels lah. hahaha.. : D Anyway, we all went to Tanjung aru, bought the food and stuffed ourselves at Pan pacific. It was good... We chatted chatted, and did all kinds of seriously weird stuff.

We went to the lobby and Vect and Penny started pretending to be serious Shanghai peeps. Hahaha.. they were shocked to hear me talk to them in chinese. Yeahh.. MY SICK NEPHEW. SICK SICK NEPHEW. : ( Vector and nelson totally polluted my mind tonight. Saddeningg.. Sighh.. Seriously had fun today. Ive been stuck at home too much.

: ) lovaaa duck~

I moved ..

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Today, I realised something..Do any of you ever wonder, if God really hears? Does he hear you cry out to Him? Is He really listening? If so, why is He still allowing you, and I to suffer such great pain.

When God seems far away-

First, the problem can stem from a purely physical cause. What happens to us physically can hvae a great effect upon us spiritually.

Second, God might seem far away because a sin has been committed and repentance not been made. God has so built our spiritual system that when we sin, guilt descends.

Third, - and by far the most common one- for feeling that God is far away is because we fail to take the time to maintain our relationship with Him. If we dont take the time to talk to God regularly in prayer and listen to Him through reading His Word, then ought it to surprise us that the relationship between us and Him begins to deteriorate?

* If God seems far away-guess who moved? God never moves away from us- It's we who move away from Him.

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my old baby, im sorryy we didnt get to meet. COMEE BACK!

Gone away..

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

I miss my xiao mei mei!!

: (

Miss..

The sotted "worst face" picture we took..
The SSS pictures we took..
Our lameee leg, finger, and arm wrestle..
Our Pocket Fighter Battles..
Our crazee situp contest..
Our word gamee.. All the horrid alphabets!!
Our screechingg..
Our random fightttss!!

: ( nelsoooon!! come back heree!! skip school!! I kno u hate it anyway.. ahhaha!!

Pieces of a dream..

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The-five-things-i've-learned

To accept things the way they are.
To remember that all that's happening, is part of God's plan for me.
To pick up myself when someone stabs me from behind.

To forgive those kind of people.

To depend on myself.

: )

It's easy to write those five sentences..

But,

It's hard to actually apply it really in my life.

But,

For the past few weeks, I've been able to apply those 5 sentences I just wrote. I've been able to just not moan or be sad about the things that have happened. Even though it did hurt, if Christ forgave those who hurt Him so much,

Why can't I try and do the same?

And yeahh.. I've stopped trying to cling on to someone for support to hear my oh-so-long stories. Haha. I mean, one day, out in the world, I'll have to be by myself. Right? So, I might as well starting being independent.

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Lisa's going to Perth tomorrow with mommy!! : ( Won't be seeing her till the end of the year. It's a half happy yet sad situation.

Why?

No sis to yak with all night.
Can't borrow her stuff :

But,

With her gone,

I'll be able to study more..
Sleep EARLIER!!
And concentrate more..

AND

I'll be able to give MOMMY a nice nice shopping list.

Hahaha..!!

Anyway, I've got tickets to KL on the 9th till the 15th of May. IRONICALLY, I'm not sure if I'm going or not yet. Cause, I might have a Malay Aural Exam on the 13th. *fingers crossed* Hope it's on the 22nd of May or even later. PLEESE GOD!!! I wanna go KL. And, if I miss this opportunity, I ain't got no opporunity till next year. Sad case right? I hope I can go laaa!! If can, will be stayin with Jie Jie. : ) And wanna go out with Ko Ko too. Haahaa..

****

-[Me]- pieces of a dream all plugged in.

Tick Me Off

Monday, February 20, 2006

TheTickMeOffStory

What is it with some pretty or popular girl's attitude? I mean, at first, they're super nice.. And once they gain lotsa friends, they start thinking they're "sooooo great".

NEWS FLASH.

Your wayyyyyyyyyy Not.

Try and remember that in your ever-so-bloated up head. The thing that really ticks me off is you suddenly seperate yourself from your first few friends and suddenly become very very very b*tchy and they back stab you and gossip about you and blab the secrets they confided in you.

SO UNCOOL.

I think, you should remember that you, in fact, are just and ordinary girl... With probally gobs of make-up and fashionable clothes which so happens to be branded or expensive and a with a whole crowd of guys trailing around you.

You wanna know whats pretty and popular? A girl with a kind heart, who doesnt pick her friends, who appreciates everyone, who doesnt backstab nor gossip.

clue that.

-humble yourself-

Everything Im Not.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Im back..

Kudat..

To many of you, it's probally the most boringest place ever. I mean, it has no decent shopping centre, no shopping centre at all in fact! All Kudat has is pasars and beaches and not forgetting the Tip of Borneo. But lets just say, this trip really made me look at myself. What I've been, and what I'm about to be if I don't change. Truthfully, I've yet to find my p u r p o s e. It's easy to say " my purpose is to serve God, and do what he has for in store for me before leaving this place " .. That's just a phrase. I mean, what is the:

" what he has in store for me " ?

Just the 5 nights at Kudat made me realise lots of things. Firstly, how blessed I am to be able to get an education. That is the first thing. Most of the workers I made friends with, never got a chance to study because they came from such poor families. They had to start work from as young as 10!! 3 workers; Ah Kong, Ah ling and Siew Mie have been workin for my unc since around 10 liddat till right now!! They dont really know how to read nor write well.. Yet, they're such nice nice people. So un-self-centered.

Speaking of nice, most of the workers I made friends with are simple and kind hearted. Ahh.. Dunno how to explain. They've just been rili nice lahh.. Doreen aka Doremon!! , Ah ling aka Bing Chi Ling , Siew Mie aka Siew Mai/Dim Sum & Xiao Mei Mei, Tina aka Anit.. haha. Then theres Ah gong, Alice, Ah moi, Whilma and Emerelda!

They are all so easy to laugh and joke with. For the past few days, they had to cope with my broken Chinese and Malay : But wuahaha.. I learned lotsa new worddss!! Everyday, I'd count the work hours with Ah lingg.. Cause everyday, i'd turn up for work damn sleepy..

Wake up at 7:30, work frm 8am-8:45 pm. Non-stop. Sleep at 12++. Fun or not? Hahhaa.. I'd been dead boring if no f r i e n d s laa.. But yeah, i had the friends so it was alright for me. ; ) Got to know a few of them much closer.. im a pry-er..

So anyway, I've been thinkin lotsa stuff and yeahh.. Before I came back to Kudat, Ive been seriously sidetracked and unfocused. I know my plannn.. I know what I want. But I dont seem to be working towards it. Not exactly hardworker.. Theres just too many distractions and thoughts clotting inside. But yeah.. After hearing so many broken dreams of my friends in Kudat. Ive realised that I have everything to go that direction I want.. My parents can afford my right now education, I have so many opportunities towards my dream.. There's books to read for ideas and whatsoever. But theres me. ME. If I dont work towards my dream myself, nothings gonna happen even with everyhting. NOTHING.

Sure, "live ur life to the fullest".. Enjoy now while ur still young. But theres limits. Im about to limit myself. And about to renew myself into being more focused. Into knowing my priorities and WORKIN TOWARDS my dream. So, starting from Monday, Homework to be finished first and whatsoever thats top important.

Hahahaa.. Geek angelaa.. Just listened to this song.

Oh no, dont you go changing..
Thats what you told me from the start.

Thought you were something different that's when it all just fell apart,

like you're so perfect and I can't measure up

but I'm not perfect

JUST SO MESSED UP

I love the lyrics of the song " Everything Im Not " Hahaha.. Reminds me of who I used to be but not anymore. Kei, I like your blog about girls ranting on about guys.. And I agree with the fact that it is pathetic to get dramatic over a guy. A guy who isnt even worth it.

Well.. Its a girl to guy thing. hahhaa.. It's the issue of guys being incredibly either ignorant or unworthit. And its the issue of girls being incredible dramatic over that unworthit guy.

<3 Happy Valentine's Day..

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Valentine's Day

Every girl's dream to receive stuff like chocolates, roses or some really nice present from an admirer.. Or their chance to give their crush something special.. In hope for perhaps.. some hint that he's.. interested?

And just imagine, in the classroom.. Some girls and guys, with their tables full of chocolates, roses, and all kinds of extravagent gifts.. And some girls and guys, with their tables just empty? And there those without anything will start questioning themselves : "am i not pretty enough? or, its not fair.. or, i wish i got at least something.."

And soo.. Knowing that some of us most likely wont be receiving any professions of undying love this Valentine's Day, I thought I'd take a moment to remind you all of God's unconditional, undeserved and unending love for YOU.

Take some time to read Psalms 139.. Here's a sneak preview:

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O Lord, you have searched me

and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise;

you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down;

you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue

you know it completely, O Lord.

****

The other day i was just reading this email.. Lets see if it actually is true for some of you

1. Y ou appear to be very strong in heart, but you're real weak and suseceptible inside
2. You spend your time protecting others when you're the one who really needs protection
3. The three most difficult words for you to say are : I love you, Sorry and Help me.
4. You wear black so you wont be noticed as you need help and understanding.

5. You find it easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face although you know it has more value when you say it to their face.

Loll. Every year for me, Valentine's day is just like any other. Just me, myself and I.. But it's cool ;P I think Valentine's day should be called FLORIST' DAY instead cause it's the day when all florists rob all of us. In other words, they do "daylight robbery"! By charging so much for just a rose. JUST A ROSE. o.O poor guys.

Hahaha.. Anyway, to everyone who's celebrating valentine's day without a guy or girl,

Happiee Valentine's Day..

Just because you dont have that special guy doesnt mean your not precious.. : D No matter what, you are ALWAYS precious..

_____

Cause I’m not who I was

When I took my first step

And I’m clinging to the promise you’re not through with me yet

So if all of these trials bring me closer to you

Then I will go through the fire

If you want me to..

La di daas.. : )

One, two step.

Sunday, February 12, 2006

Apples & Oranges a day, keeps the fatty foods away!!

Sighh. Tomorrows Monday. Monday means Maths which means more homework. Oh boo, hoo, hoo. I've to start revising my Book 1. Gonna have a Math exam straight after Andrew comes back.

Moved couple of things into the hse. Kinda mad at the condition of my Madison Finn books. I vouch im never gonna lend anyone my books if they dont know how to take care of stuff. I mean, how hard could it be just to keep it in a good condition? People who dont take care of their stuff just dont appreciate things man.

Argh. I dont have BOOKSHELVES in my room. How daft. How'm I supposed to put my bookss. Ive got lots of BOOKS. I collect BOOKS. I was kinda mad this afternoon. I specifically told my dad before he did the furniture to have LOTS OF SHELVES. grr. Now my mum is complaining she's got too many shelves in her room, and im complaining that theres not a single shelf in my room. Well, trying to look at things this way : I wont be around next year.

Well.. Tomorrows my last day of gym with Fran. sniffles. Ur the best gym partner. I tried to get my sis to come with me today. SHE REFUSED. grr. Some people..

#All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through#

Broken smile

Saturday, February 11, 2006

It's a wonderful, marvellous Saturday. I am so glad it's a SATURDAY!! I finally can relax a bit more..

Next week, wont be around. Going back to Kudat for a while, approximately 5 days? yeah.. Will have to bring my Econs text and probally my Math book. Need to study.. I'm becoming a study nerd.

I might be going to Kl in MAYY!! : D well it ALL DEPENDS on the malay paper. Sigh.. I hope hope hope I can go Kl. I've been dyin to go there. Im soo sad I cant go for e06. I dunno la. I might, I might not. It all depends on my study progress.

My parents have asked me to take my Grade 8 piano exam this year. Im still praying and deciding about it. I dunnoo!! My parents and teacher sez, do it dis year and be done with it. Who knows, next year u wont be around... BLARGH. If I do it, I'll be EVEN busier. Already Im basically just doing homework and reading texts everyday ( except saturday and sunday : D ).. See how ler... Most probally, i'll take grd8 exam this year. ahhhh.. Someone shoot me.

If you slap my face, if you dont call, honestly i dont care at all. * angie larrr..

Somewhere only we know

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Sunday is over.. I cant believe CNY is simply over. I cant believe my bolster and my xiao mei mei has gone back to Kuching!! Sighh.. I already miss them so much. Guess we all had some serious cousin-rebonding this CNY.

Feeling so extremely fat now. Extremely extremely fat. I think I've gained like 10 kg. Been eating like and oink oink this CNY. Who can blame me? Lets just say, the food was scrumptious. I hope its the correct spelling. Anyway back to the CNY food. It was good good. And basically, while stayin at my cousins condo, got really fed to the brim.

Didnt get to see beru yesterday.. But saw berrie yesterday and today. hahaa.. Saw berrie when I was with my xiao mei mei, saw berrie in choir room and saw berrie in parkin lot. As momo says it, she was lookin fine. Momo wants to get to know berrie.. But wheres the chance?

Feeling quite bummed. The news just seems so sudden. I can only say the stuff which I thing is right.. But I wish it wont happen. If it did, I think it'll affect both. If it happened next year, maybe it wont be so bad cos I most probally wont be around. But this year.. Who am I gonna turn to now that your gone? I guess it all bolts down to the places we share. Somewhere only we know..

*back to the playground. the swings u owe me.*
- I surrender all. To a Saviour I will give, My Life an Offering. - Closer to u Jesus.

Gimme gimme gimme!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Gimme Gimme Gimme What I Want!!

Whee. I cant believe its Thursday today : D I mean.. After Friday, Its holiday again. Hahaha!

Went for swimming today. OMG. Fran is so 'smart' . Hahaa. I overslept, ( actually my mum didnt wake me up ) Luckiee Fran called up to make sure i was going for swimming. Haha. If not, she'll probally scream and scream at me.

I love Aunty Irene!! : D she gave a nice big juicy fat fat ang pao. Hahaha. Im naughtiee.

Well, I so cant believe I didnt get to out yesterday with Mel & Nel for shopping and movies!! How outrageously unfair is that? I had to stay at home and finish my homework. All the double yuck essays. PFGHTT.

- will edit laterrrr...