Move Along

Sunday, July 30, 2006

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

Hmm..
Why am I such a Complainer?

*scary*

Just yesterday, I found myself pathetically complaining over some minute business. Egh. Feel freaking bad about it. Yesterday, was cell bonding time : ) It was good, though, could have been better. Our cell had quite a good turn up as there were 4 newcomers : Narumi, Fanny, Emily and Kati. We had McD's, played murderer and Taboo. Lol.

Kept asking all the guys to trade places with me at first. Asked Alvin first, whether he wants to take this opportunity in meeting all the leng lui's in my group which means I SWAP with him places; I go bowling instead. But Gosh!

Who was I kidding?

Asking the bowling freak to change? Hahaha.. So, one unsucessful attempt.

Trade Places ATTEMPT 2

Me : Hong Ming, Hong Ming! How about being a girl today?? ( runs after him )
Him: o.O ( stares dumbfounded) For what? ( stares suspiciously )
Me : Oh you know.. ( tries to look innocent ) Then I can go .. bowling? ( he he he )
Him: HAHAHA. No.
Me : Sniff sniff?

*then the horrid Leslie joins in*

Leslie : AHAHA. Dont worry, me and Him will enjoy ourselves while you stick around in church.
Leslie & Him : HAHAHAA..
Me : =___=" hmph.

: ( Failed attempt AGAIN.

3rd Attempt..

So Leslie.. How bout you try my cell today. They all really cool wan! Really! ... Yalah, they cool, but I wanna bowl. Are you sure you want to bowl????!! Yes. Hahahaa.. I shall have fun.. Hmph. SO WILL I.

So, another failed attempt. But who cares? : D My cell bonding was good.

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Man, Ive been getting edgy for the past few hours. First, the clouds looked all dark and dark and..

DARK

Thank God for answering my prayers cause its look Sunny now! I mean DUH. Sundays have to be sun-ny. SUN - Day mah. *rolls eyes* Around 10plus, msged Andy to ask all the guys to pray. He was like : Have faith Angela, have faith.

dood, since when did you give me the have faith business?
Should I consider it good ; P

Anyway, 1 hour more. Suffering from a whee bit of boredom. bah!

SawyoufromadistancewhichIheldoff-heartbreaker

If I could change, I would.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Friday : )

Maybe it's just pathetically me,
But this week sure flew fast.
Too fast.

Anyway, played this whole morning.
No school, no nothing.
It felt awesome for once - waking up late.
Have been forgoing waking up lates quite some time!

I feel blubbers coming up : (
Last & This week has been just so cruel!
sigh.
There's just been the popping ups of so much
ohsoyummyfood!
What do I do?
There's definitely no strength in me to resist.

'' Flee from the devil & he shall flee from you "

PFFT.

Screw fleeing food. I canttt!!

This week has been fruitfully productive. Managed to finish all that I wanted to. Starting to get all chickeny for O-levels. I just pray I'll have enough perserverance to last till its all over.

*tahts for studies*

Going for football on Sunday.
*stares up the sky*
PLEESE GOD, DO NOT LET IT RAIN.

If it rains, I'll positively stab myself. I need to run and have fun at the same time.
So, all you's who also intend to play football, pray pray pray!

; )

*tahts for sports*

Lastly, late late announcements!

Happy Beeelated birthday Kei! -missing you heaps__:_)

Happy Beeelated birthday Potato! -cant wait to cu in dayss!

Happy Beeelated birthday Huey Huey! -when's our next meetsleepover? : P

Happy Beeelated birthday Thom ASS! -get yourself locked!!!! ^^

<3

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation. I can do everything through him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:12a,13)

Easier To Run

Sunday, July 23, 2006

That can break me; Make me,
If they want they can chase me,
Love me, Hate me,
I dont care anymore.

It's been a half/half week.

::

Starting from Friday, went shopping with mum ;P It's good to shop with mummy cause she has all the $$ and there's mostly no limits!! If I shopped myself with friends, there would be limits. Haha. Thats why, if shopping for my stuff, go with mummy!!

Went to Parkson cause mum had to get some stuff. Guess was having this 40% off on all bags. Other brands like Pierre Cardin, Alain Delon, Sembonio, Carlo Rino and etc were also having discounts

BUT

everyone just crowded over the Guess section. ; P LOL. Even though some of the bags were yucky, everyone just 'tried' to close one eye and find something 'suitable' just for the sake of looking good.

Anyway..

The weekend has been hectic.
In summary, Bbq and Mum's School party.

A sneak of Bbq:::

People started coming after 6.. Overall, the turn up was not bad. There was Vincent, Franky, Nelson, Penny, Allison, Amanda, Amy, Ting Ting, Pamela, Michelle, Sheryn, Crystal, Jason, Ah Yiong, Joel, Earnest, Dominic, Kelly, Kristie and Olivia. Yeah.. After the BBQ, we had some ice breakers which lasted till 10 plus you know? We all just basically fellowship'ed by playing one game after another.

After 2 of my mom's games, I organised a few more. It was just funny! My mom's games involved gargling a song, feeding each other ice cream ( but, both partners are blindfolded! ). Yeah. Mine, one game was similar to Jack Wind Blow, then there was this butt travel and choose competition ( a real wild kick butt game! ), 1-42 run game, H2o ( this pour water game thing with a Cola catch), and Murderer. Im positively sure everyone enjoyed themselves; which is GOOD cause I pray that there will be a better turn up for Youth in the 'to-come' meetings!

A sneak of Mum's School Party:::

The school party started about 1pm. All the lil kids and teens ( aged 5-18) were just waiting for our arrival; came a teeny weeny bit late cause mum had to pick up some stuff first you see. The lil kids were just so exicted; my guess is because they just couldnt wait for the games to start so that they can start winning some games which thus leads to 'prizes'. You know how kids are.

They just love presents.

First, there was a ballet performance by the Grade 8's. Next year will be my class' turn as we will be Grade 8 next year! My last year of ballet! After the performance, there was this mini game, and then lunch first. After lunch, there was this Cinderella game, mime instrument and dance game and this dance competition.

OMG la. I was sitting with some of my friends, one of which is MS HYPER. Or should i rephrase, MS SUPER HYPER. She's really sporting/daring. She wanted to go for the dance competition. Oh yeah, her name is Cornelia and she's got the same surname as me! So after seeing the lil kids dance to Mambo 5, Macarina and other songs where they had to shake shake and do some unmentionables : It was us big girls turn. There's category's you see. Pre-primary-Grade4; one group, then Grade 5-Inter; another group.

My grade, nil of us wanted to go for the dancing competition. In fact, in our whole table of 12, nil of us wanted to dance! Only Cornelia wanted to dance!! So then, there was Sharon pulling each one of us on stage. I tried to make some feeble excuse like I had a cram and all, but they wont listen. So, sigh, decided to go. I mean, if I sucked; I'd get pulled out and then I can sit down : D then at least, no one can say I wasnt sporting and so forth.

So there, was the music blasting, and me and all my friends dancing like complete IDIOTS. But after like 2 minutes plus, we were all like what the heck man, who cares? Let's all go wild. So we all started doing trains and some basic feet shuffles and a lot of really weird whacky moves. Hahaa. Me and Cornelia were just so scarily wild that were kept telling each other, who cares who cares, it's our time to act stupid, let everyone talk, we're just gonna let loose. Hahaa.. ; ) And we both won for the dance competition. Coolies? Corny got 1st place and I got 2nd.

Yeahh..

Well, have been sick.
Just so freaking glad its over.
Being sick is the last thing I want.

Looking forward for this week to end. : P

WHOOPS.

God Bless me to fly through this week well!
Bible verse for the week;

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who in every respect has been tested as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16)

: )

Take care and God bless all! Hope you guys had a wonderful weekend. Time to get back to studies.

*ugh*

hearteffect*i-m-YOU.itsnotalwaysaboutrainbowsandbutterflies.

p.s. old but meaningfully beautiful lryics.

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I've kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played

Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there'd never be a past

(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending
I don't feel misplaced
It's so much simpler than change

**

All simple things, where have you been?

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Yay! I've got a nice new layout.
:
Well, 'okay'.. I 'stole' it from Blogskins.
Still..

Art was okay today. I had to sit in my teacher's garden to 'capture' a garden scene. Everyone who passed by his garden and saw me were giving me stares of o.O
Never see people in garden ahhh??!?!

Anyway, I dont care cause I did well today! Yay! For another ONCE, I managed to stay in proportion. Whee~

Went gym with Penny. We were in the gym for like 2hours? Just exercising our asses off like there was no tomorrow. At the end of it, we both felt AWESOME It was just such a beautiful feeling you know?

Saw Nad, Natt & Anson in the reading room. Was kinda suprise to see Natt.

: D survey timee!

SAD SECTION

01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?
Pathetically tons of times..
02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Of course..
03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Nope..
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?
Nope..
05. Do you cry when you get an injury?
Depends : D If the pain is excruciating then the obvious answer is YES.
06. Do certain songs make you cry?
Yeahh..

HAPPY SECTION

01. Are you a happy person?
Mostly, yup!
02. What can always make you happy?
Tons of things!
03. Do you wish you were happier?
I dont have a problem with my happiness now so, nope! How happy can someone be anyway??
04. Is being happy overrated?
NOOO.
05. Can music make you happy?
Certain music can. Depressing ones can SOO NOT make me happy.

LOVE SECTION

01. How many times have you had your heart broken?
Uncountable times!
02. Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?
Yeah..
03. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?
Yeah..
04. Have you ever been truly in love?
Yeah..

HATE SECTION

01. Who do you actually hate?
No one in particular. However, I do detest people who are Fake. Who try so hard just to be somebody else. Its ANNOYING.
02. Have you ever made a hit list?
Few times..
03. Have you ever been on a hit list?
o.O How should I know?
05. Do you hate George Bush?
Should I?

SELF ESTEEM SECTION

01. Are you good looking?
: D Yes Yes Yes. Im God's Creation!
02. Do you wish you could be someone else?
For whattttt?

LOOK AT ME

01. What is your current hair?
Black?
02. Whats your natural color?
Black?
03. What color are your eyes?
Brown *I think..
04. Current Piercings?
Oneee!
05. Straight Hair or Curls?
Dunno. I just like my hair as it is ; )

CURRENTLY WEARING

01. What shirt are you wearing?
Some Japanese Shirt..
02. Shorts?
Boarder Shorts..
03. Shoes?
Nawhh.. My feet likes going naked.
04. Underwear?
Some comfy thing.
05. Necklaces?
Two silver crosses.

HAVE YOU EVER

01. Hugged someone?
Plenty! Hugs are medicinees! They make you instantly happyy!
02. Been on the phone until the sun came up?
; P Still working on it!
03. Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Yeah.. When I was trying to drown myself.
04. Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?
GROSS NO.

LASTS

01. Person you talked to in person?
Dad..
02. Person you talked to online?
Ko Ko.
03. Person you talked to on the phone?
Dad..
05. Laugh?
With Dashika in I.S..
06. Last time you had a shower?
4 hours ago..

OTHER

01. Do you like surveys?
Depends..
02. What kind of shampoo do you use?
Loreal..
03. Do you get along with your parents?
Yeahh..
04. Do you feel stress?
DUH. Stress is like written all over meee!! With horrid exams. UGH.

I TAG

Whoever thats reading this I guess? Feeling soo malas now. Haha..

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Tomorrow school AGAIN.
Sigh.
SIGH
:
Looking forward to Saturday again.. Cept there wont be youth this week cause theres gonna be Generation Concert over at SIB. Wanna go but having youth bbq at my place so OH WEELL..

Happy studying peeps!

For everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God. (1 John 5:4-5)

ifonlyyouandicouldgobacktothepast;missingyoulikecrazy

: P

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Went for the I.S education fair and bazaar.
Well..
*rephrase*
Went for the I.S education fair only.
:

Was going to go for the bazaar, but every single friend I met on the way said that there was nothing much to buy; eat. Just fried kuay teow and tin drinks. Also, since it was freaking hot, I hence decided to go for a pass.

Felt kinda embarass with dijie : (
pfft.
I arrived with mum & bro then I saw this massive crowd of peeps at the ttss hall entrance. I was like, *please dont let him be waiting there* Then he was there with his massive crowd of friends.

HMPH

The first thing after saying hi, he was like going on and on about me being late. How was I suppose to know his whole gang of friends will be waiting for me?!?!? If I had known, I would have made some feeble excuse and just meet up with him another time. BAH! Didnt get to catch up much with him.. Probably talked for 5 minutes plus plus? Then he had to leave with his friends. Oh well~ It was good meeting up anyway. ; ) He's got a nice new phone which I threatened to throw on the floor if he didnt stop blaming me for being late and all..

Anyway, Sat was not bad. Went to Magellan around 6:30 plus.. Didnt know Ray's performance was around that time till Bern ngam ngam called me as soon as I arrive at Magellan. Thank God Ming was coming down from the church so him; my life saver, teman-ed me to Sutera.

Ming was shouting soo loud for Ray during Ray's performance. Haha~ Ray was damn good man! What a pity he didnt expect to win!! *grrs* If he did; and prepared a special solo, he SURE win! Absolute POSITIVE. I mean, that other guy was good .. *i suppose*. He looks SO LIKE A GIRL. I thought so at first, and was telling Debbie, eh, which drummer u like the best? The girl not bad right?? Debbie was like .. o.O girl? Got meh? Its a GUY lah!! Gayguy.

Me and Keira were laughing our asses off over that utama guy. We saw him perform in this charity concert, and since we were in charge of the light system, we saw his 'practice' performance which revolved 24/7 around leap-singing. Cheeihh~ We didnt get to see him perform yesterday but we did see his dancers breakdance. Some were good but the rest were struggling.

Cell yesterday was good. They've changed the whole conception which definitely seems for the best; girls and guys separate which leaves each sex the ease to share. I think for some peeps to share with a girlguy group could be hard. It isnt hard for me, but I think for some it is. I know Alvin is much more happier with Nicholas group; not that Eleni wasnt a fantastic Cell leader, but just that he felt soo awkaward with the all girl group; he felt an outsider. Now with Nicholas, whom he hangs around quite often, he feels more comfy. ; P I guess its also cuz he's made lotsa new guy friends. : D I love my cell. Chucky and Evany; they're the greatestt funnneeestt peeps!

PFFFT!

OMG!Daniel Koh was like raving about how he wants to learn the shuffle and he said Leslie can dance the shufflee! I know Sam can dance, but Leslie, cheeeih. I kept asking him to dance on Saturday but he kept denying! The next thing I know is that I'll be hearing from peeps that Alvin can dance too. LOL. Everyone should check out his mykad which he had to take his mykad picture 5 times! And it so happens, that the 5th time he took the photo (after much exhaustion of plastering a fake smile) he decided to FROWN; which hence makes him look like some gangster.

HAHA.

So *yay*. If there happens to be a new dance coming up, I shall ask Debbie to snatch members such as Leslie and Samuel. Yes, Yes. : )

Whoops~ gtg for tuition. Outdoor painting today. Gonna visit a boutique with mum and then off for tuition ; )

imageekinorange.

You and I

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Im gonna start just like last week

It's a Beautifool Thursday!

*stares up the sky and sighs happily ; thank God*
:)

Just yesterday, I felt so depressed. Just wanted to scream my head off in frustration that I've been trying to cope. Then this verse kept popping to my head:

'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding'

I was like 'woah' God, I am definitely casting my burden on you. Sorry but I just cant take it already.

You can be my hero.

And so guess what,
YES.
God definitely saved my day! : )
AND so today became beautiful.
Ah. Still so glad its all over for this week.

Oh and once again, thxx Fran for ur attempt.
***

Gonna watch Pirates Of The Carribean 2 later. *fingers crossed* Hope its nice. I dont wanna waste my $$. LOL. Honestly though, I dont feel like going for movies. Just so malas to go out nowadays since places arent interesting. Oh well..

Tried booking the AirAsia tickets for E06 this now. GRR. Something wrong with my mum's card. Have to wait till tonight. SHEESH. I seem to be prostponing it like .. Always? And the plane tickets have increased!! o.O

-________-"

Yesterday was trying to persuade my dijie to stay! : ( Dont go to 1Acad! Come with meee to I.S!! He thinks I.S is a waste of time. Oh FINE, so Im a waste of time too. I shall make ur life miserable on Sunday : D

uniforms, arent they ur fave mister? ruins ur style. *evil laugh*

Hahahaa.. My good distraction.

The 2F's popped by yesterday. Im a complete rubbish collecter *Scolds myself*

Still, in rubbish, there's lots u know?
Lots to recycle. : D I know Deb can agree with me for that.

Well, PR tonight! PLEEESE dont let me miss it. Watching it at night is not the same as watching it tomoro morning. *crosses fingers again* TONIGHT, TONIGHT, TONIGHT. PR is just soo nice la. I hope Nick, Daniel and that chinese girl which I forgot her name, gets in the finals. Santino is good but he does not know how to dress girls. He makes them look like tarts or something. : X Girls are respected peeps.

UNDERSTOOD?

Anyway, thats about it for now. Im sleepy. Oh yeahh.. football on Sun was great. : D Not for someone who was out of stamina within 20mins. HAHA.

<3

;; back to the somewhere only you and i know `

Chocmarshmallowsxtraformeonsunday
: D wonderfoolitiness..

: D

Friday, July 07, 2006

*news flash*

The Triplet K.E.K Gays In Centre Point

K. (enneth) E. (ddie) K. (hoon)
HAVING FUN WITHOUT ME.
*snifffffleeeesssooobbbb*

Stupid, stupid, stupid Khoon.
Always last minute then call me.
Pfft.

:
D I shall just hope that you guys DO NOT have fun in the cinema. Hahaa.. Kenneth for once proved himself gay today! Lol. At KL, he was ALWAYS trying to act manly and all. However, when I was on the phone with Khoon, heard Kenneth screeching like some baby girl or something.

o.O so weird.

But at least I made a discovery that he is gay. I just knew he was. The way he looked at Khoon and Eddie.. and attached himself to them ( he literally drapes himself all over both of em) : P.. and his RESISTANCE towards Joyce. I asked Khoon to invite Joyce with em, and Kenneth literally SCREECHED *again* like a gay. He started shouting in chinese that if Khoon did so much as invite, he'll drop Khoon by the roadside and drive off.

AWW..

But : D ITS A SIGN. Kenneth wants Khoon and Eddie all to himself. Hahaa!!

Anyway..

Had fun at Coffee Bean yesterday. I think I kinda put PF off : D who cares. However, didnt get to talk soo much with Feli. We were SUPPOSE to meet at 8 SHARP, which I did so, and that dear V.I.P only datangd at 8:30.

Convinient

Jk, jk. But anyway, we're still gonna meet up! Dunno where tho.. Coffee Bean's drinks arent so nice anymore :

Went to Centre Point with mum today. Almost died of boredom. Cp is now like the uttermost BORING BORING BORING place ever!! Why cant K.K have malls like 1U or MM? All the clothes stuff SUCK big time. I think I'll just save and get all the clothes I want in KL and Spore.

omg

; P Deb's been ask to cheorograph a dance for Maktab with the Honey Song! o.O she's hesitatin!! Lol. I hope she goes for it. She's a greeeeeeeeat dancer and cheorographer. In fact, shes cheorographing the latest Wildfire dance. ( ev

SCREW'D

Thursday, July 06, 2006

For the first time,
I feel so helpless.
I cant even help myself.

God, please please please let her find those stupid notes.
I hate being blamed.
ALWAYS.
Being blamed.

I really really remember returning those notes. Yet, she says she doesnt remember. Haih. It really pissed me off. If I could swear, I'd swear I returned those freaking notes. It's so unfair that she doesnt even intend to search for those notes. I told her, Okay.. I'll try and look again. But you try and look too kay? And she was like.. NO. NO. I dont have it. Wtheck man. After that, I was like in no mood to continue on. Just wanted to walk off.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
and everyone else thats just making my life more complicated and hard to live!!!

Its one stupid headache after another.
Thank God its a Thursday.
I dont think I can pull it off any longer..
It's getting to frustrating.

If tomorrow doesnt get any better,
thats it.
That is it.

THAT IS IT.

Ive had enough.
Angela this Angela that Angela this Angela that.

IM FREAKING TRYING SO SHUT ALL UR FREAKING MOUTHS OKAY?!!

There's a difference between trying to push me, and trying to really stab me.

****
Anyway, enough... Will be hitting the books harder. Im so tired of this. Steph, you and I should so go out and itch all day long about stuff that we're so hating. Wish you were here. I think I'll forgo all television. Apart from the luxury of going out with Fel tonight and also watching Project Runway, I think I'll starve myself of every luxury/pleasure until I've accomplished:

1. Notes for all covered Econs Chapters
2. Notes for all covered Comm Chapters
3. Read Cambridge Book
4. Read Culture Book5
. Read Econs Extra Text
6. Read Comm Extra Text
7. Read Characted Studies Book
8. Read English Extra Essays Book
9. Read Englit G.Exp Text
10. Read Business Extra Text
11. Revision for Maths 1,2,3
12. Corrections for Summaries
13. Englit Homework Essays
14. Test myself for Englit
15. Memorise Englit phrasesIm so screwed.

Well.. Looking forward to being starved.

****
97 more days till its all over.ninety seven

^
God, please help me go thru this.

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